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Walk of Faith - Condoleeza Rice
August 27, 2002
Walking in faith
Trained
as a girl to be a concert pianist and a competitive ice skater,
National Security Advisor Condoleezza Rice, 47, is undergirded by her
Christian beliefs. During an Aug. 4 Sunday school class at National
Presbyterian Church, she explained what inspires her. Here are some
excerpts:
I was a
preacher's kid, so Sundays were church, no doubt about that. The church
was the center of our lives. In segregated black Birmingham of the late
1950s and early 1960s, the church was not just a place of worship. It
was the place where families gathered; it was the social center of the
community, too.
Although
I never doubted the existence of God, I think like all people I've had
some ups and downs in my faith. When I first moved to California in
1981 to join the faculty at Stanford, there were a lot of years when I
was not attending church regularly. I was traveling a lot. I was a
specialist in international politics, so I was always traveling abroad.
I was always in another time zone. One Sunday I was in the Lucky's
Supermarket not very far from my house - I will never forget - among
the spices and an African-American man walked up to me and said he was
buying some things for his church picnic. And he said, "Do you play the
piano by any chance?"
I said,
"Yes." They said they were looking for someone to play the piano at
church. It was a little African-American church right in the center of
Palo Alto. A Baptist church. So I started playing for that church. That
got me regularly back into churchgoing. I don't play gospel very well -
I play Brahms - and you know how black ministers will start a song and
the musicians will pick it up? I had no idea what I was doing and so I
called my mother, who had played for Baptist churches.
"Mother,"
I said, "they just start. How am I supposed to do this?" She said,
"Honey, play in C and they'll come back to you." And that's true. If
you play in C, people will come back. I tell that story because I
thought to myself, "My goodness, God has a long reach." I mean, in the
Lucky's Supermarket on a Sunday morning.
I played
for about six months for them and then I decided to go and find the
Presbyterian Church again. I'm a devoted Presbyterian. I really like
the governance structure of the church. I care about the Presbyterian
Church. On a Sunday morning, I went to Menlo Park Presbyterian Church
[in Palo Alto]. The minister that Sunday morning gave a sermon I will
never quite forget. It was about the Prodigal Son from the point of
view of the elder son.
It set
the elder son up not as somebody who had done all the right things but
as somebody who had become so self-satisfied; a parable about
self-satisfaction, and content and complacency in faith [and] that
people who didn't somehow expect themselves to need to be born again
can be complacent. I started to think of myself as that elder son who
had never doubted the existence of God but wasn't really walking in
faith in an active way anymore.
I started
to become more active with the church, to go to Bible study and to have
a more active prayer life. It was a very important turning point in my
life.
My father
was an enormous influence in my spiritual life. He was a theologian, a
doctor of divinity. He was someone who let you argue about things. He
didn't say, "Just accept it." And when I had questions, which we all
do, he encouraged that. He went to great lengths to explain about the
man we've come to know as Doubting Thomas; he thought that was a little
story from Christ about the fact it was OK to question. And that Christ
knew that Thomas needed to feel his wounds; feel the wounds in His side
and feel the wounds in His hands. That it was what Thomas needed - he
needed that physical contact. And then of course Christ said when you
can accept this on faith, it will be even better.
I [liked]
that because my father didn't brush aside my questions about faith. He
allowed me as someone who lives in my mind to also live in my faith.
In this
job, when we faced a horrible crisis like September 11, you go back in
your mind and think, "Is there anything I could have done? Might I have
seen this coming? Was there some way?" When you go through something
like that, you have to turn to faith because you can rationalize it,
you can make an intellectual answer about it but you can't fully accept
it until you can feel it here (taps chest). That time wasn't a failure,
but it was a period of crisis when faith was really important for me.
I try
always to not think I am Elijah, that I have somehow been particularly
called. That's a dangerous thing. In a sense, we've all been, to
whatever it is we are doing. But if you try to wear the imprimatur of
God - I've seen that happen to leaders who begin too much to believe -
there are a couple of very good anecdotes to that. I try to say in my
prayers, "Help me to walk in Your way, not my own." To try to walk in a
way that is actually trying to fulfill a plan and recognize you are a
cog in a larger universe.
I think
people who believe in a creator can never take themselves too
seriously. I feel that faith allows me to have a kind of optimism about
the future. You look around you and you see an awful lot of pain and
suffering and things that are going wrong. It could be oppressive. But
when I look at my own story or many others that I have seen, I think,
"How could it possibly be that it has turned out this way?" Then my
only answer is it's God's plan. And that makes me very optimistic that
this is all working out in a proper way if we all stay close to God and
pray and follow in His footsteps.
I really
do believe that God will never let you fall too far. There is an old
gospel hymn, "He knows how much you can bear." I really do believe that.
I greatly
appreciate, and so does the president, the prayers of the American
people. You feel them. You know that they are there. If you just keep
doing that, it is so important to all of us.
In many
ways, it's a wonderful White House to be in because there are a lot of
people who are of faith, starting with the president. When you are in a
community of faithful, it makes a very big difference not only in how
people treat each other but in how they treat the task at hand.
Among
American leadership, there are an awful lot of people who travel in
faith. It's a remarkable thing and I think it probably sets us apart
from most developed countries where it is not something that is
appreciated quite as much in most of the world.
I've
watched over the last year and a half how people want to have human
dignity worldwide. You hear of Asian values or Middle Eastern values
and how that means people can't really take to democracy or they'll
never have democracy because they have no history of it, and so forth.
We forget that when people are given a choice between freedom and
tyranny, they will choose freedom. I remember all the stories before
the liberation of Afghanistan that they wouldn't "get it," that they
were all warlords and it would just be chaos. Then we got pictures of
people dancing on the streets of Kabul just because they could listen
to music or send their girls to school.
from the Washington Times 8/27/2002
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